why i am such a pathetic girl ? why my life is lifeless ? why all of this happened to me ? which part i'm doing wrong in my past ? until my current world ruin my life ? i don't know am i already tired i just don't want to care much [heartless] but.... if i don't care.. why i'm still questioning from the start ? 😞

this blog supposed to be my dream world . i should dream what i want be in here... but, my real world so cruel until i cant do that. its disturb me... i lost my focus... 

all this complaint such like i'm not believing in god. 😞 why all of this happened to me .....

to friends (i don't really have actually) who still stick with me, i know, you just pretending care. i know you don't want me. i know you just feel sorry to me. but, day by day, you show me my worthy on you. i saw. 😊 it's alright... no matter how much i try, i know, i can't please people 😞😞

to my boyfriend, thank you for supporting me. thank you for still want to bear with me. if you have reach your limits, you can go too like the others. i really appreciate your effort for me .. thank you. 

after all, at the end each day, i always wish i can closed my eyes forever.