How am I?

How're my feelings now?

Have done my degree but no future...

I'm such a loser...

Looking people around got their job, happy with their life...

Me? Myself?

I got nothing to be proud

of except for depression, antisocial, anxiety, no future, no job, no income...

I just can't...

Got boyfriend that almost being like me... 

Ya... I turn him being depressed too...

What a life...

What a pathetic life actually...

Pity to my boyfriend.. I'm sorry for him... 

I'm not sure if we still can create a beautiful future together...

With the sick that we have...

At least before this, he just needs to handle an abnormal person like me...

And now, sort of, he depresses too lately... 

2 crazy people in one relationship... funny... 

I'm really really sorry for him...

I should push him away or he should leave me...

but... yes..both of that I (we) did...

But, I (we) can't stand alone.. 

No.

Actually, I need him... 

Need his existence... 

I'm confused about my feelings...

am I still loves him? 

am I still have feelings? 

NO!

Is he loves me?

Is he still have feelings?

I'm just... not sure about my life... my thought... my feelings...

I should push away all people around me...

They will get hurts because of me.

Includes my family...

I wish I can go out of this house and live alone.

I don't want to have any contact with anybody...

I just want to exist in everybody's life...