when at the lowest point, don't want to talk, here I am. 

got a job (almost 5 months of working), but still depressed even I love my work.

idk how to be happy... in fact, it's awkward for me to be happy... idk

just idk.

I love seeing people buy stuff for themself, like appreciate and self-love kind of post...

I want too.. but, I don't deserve that... like "why should i, no one loves me, so why should I love myself ?"

try to do something for me, but I'm too lazy and think it's not appropriate to do for myself...

my boyfriend? I think he hates me so much hahahahaha

yeah, he hates me...

when can I get out from this house and living alone....

I'm too broke to live alone......

like i really wanna get out and disappear 

i don't want to have anyone in my life...

can i just die ?

i don't afraid to die, I'm afraid to live....